Patch up on SATURDAY

  'I know you Like and Love me!'

Five days before Saturday I was made to think

Wondering if I should put words on paper with a ink

The short messages that you sent were different

I didn't think it is going to be like house rent.

With those SMS I was thinking with blank

And all I wanted to do was crazy yank

Me and my Narrow-mind went Negative

But it changed when you dropped another positive.

You never wanted me to leave you but

You loved me yet you don't want to hurt me

You feared and felt bad about yourself

Felt bad because you can't forget your past.

You didn't feel good loving both of us

your ex and me, when you have problem forgetting your ex

And I thought you are still in relation with your ex

So I wanted not to mess up things between you.

I made up mind to say 'I won't come in between' on Saturday

I asked you what I have to Know, the final question 'Are you still in Relation?'

And to it, you answered 'YES' that is when I felt disgusted

I came in between Lovers, I wanted to run.

I said I won't come in between you and

Wanted to go far from you, your expression changed

And you said 'Did I ask you not to come'

I was confused yet I protested.

We talked about it and talked

Until you said 'Okay lets be in Relation' and 'I am still worried about you'

I was content that you and I are in Relation

Forget your past, Past is past.

Breakup on Saturday changed to Patch-up on SATURDAY.!

And Now I am with you and you are with me

I am just going to love you and you only.

Patch up on Saturday.   

Stupid thoughts

It sounds and seems so stupid as time progress and I walk into the future. I am now a working guy, programmer at Southtech Bhutan pvt. Ltd, company based in Bangladesh and when I think I want to go back to college or want to have everything in my life in short span of time.

While I was a high school-er all i dreamed was to be a college going student dreaming about all the fun that one would have while you are in college. I thought being in college you would get to be crazy and do things that you never did in your entire life. Getting drunk, getting laid or being stupid enough to create some insane scene in the college. Get a back log or something But damn none of them happened. I imagined too much as a Engineering Student in a University in India. What I imagined was something that happens in a University in States not in India.
I completely misunderstood the meaning of freedom and enjoyment before going to India for higher studies. When I look back to refresh some of the wonderful times while in University all I remember is going to college on time, attending classes for all the subjects, didn't bunk the college campus nor did I stay absent for a week or more! This is all shit when I recollect this things and more over, all I wanted was to graduate and get a Job.

When I was a high school student I wanted to be college student. And while I was a college student I wanted to get a job. Now that I am employed in one of the best banking software company I want to go back and Start my College life all over again.

What is that we people really want. We want all the crazy things and still when we achieve it we still dream something that has already been in your life. I am guessing I am a Complicated person after all.

Let me see where I go after I have worked for the company. Would I still want for something more or would I be wishing for my past. Past is to be remembered and present to be enjoyed while the future is to be worked upon.

Began

It Hurts deep inside when i don't hear your voice and even hurts more when i know that we are very far from one another. i keep longing for your love and to be with you for ever.
i can't stay a day without thinking about you forget about when i am with you. Your absence makes me insane. My eyes sheds few drops of tears longing to see you and my heart skips a beat when i think of you.
you being far makes me feel insecure yet i want this distance, the distance which makes me think of you everyday. with distance my love grows. with time i will love you more and i will keep wanting you.
I don't know when and how i fell in love with you but the love was worth everything. I couldn't find anyone perfect then you. there is not a single day and night where i don't think of you. The sleep i have is sleepless and the day i go by is full of you. Love wasn't easy and now it became even harder to forget.
talking with you even the whole night wont make me feel bored and starring at you without a word i can do it all day *365*. when i am not with you i feel incomplete and when i am with you i feel complete to the point that i can't even make out who i am.
In your love i forgot who i am and the longing even became deeper and stronger. no words can describe how i feel about you and how deep i am in love with you. even the earths core can't be compared to my love and the galaxies are just part of my feelings for you. the vastness of the ocean lets me know that my love for you have no end and my love is as pure as mine and your blood.
I can spend the whole day standing beside you and loving you even more and deeper. my love will have no end since i didn't even know from where it started. the rain that falls makes sure that i am pure for your love and the sun helps to shine the love that i have given you. shine even brighter then the sun itself.
i dream breath of you. you are my everything. i cant imagine my life without you!

Life In Difference! College & After

Memories are one thing that everyone would love to create and rejoice upon. We create so many memories right from our childhood and keep on creating after we are grown up as well. But the memories compared to that of college is unique and wonderful from what is yet to come.
Everyone enjoys their college life and yearns for the best while in college. Life changes once you are out of college giving you some real pain in the ass. Damn life in college was much better and i guess it is the same for everyone. Wouldn't you say College was fun even if it was a bad-ass. My college life was one of a shit which i don't really want to recollect but comparing to the life that i have after college, i would say "Lets go back to college.!"
You travel where you are not suppose to go and spend money as if you are a son of Bill Gates. How funny being broke in college was but that was okay when you can ask your friends to lend you some bucks. Go to college and attend class if you like and stay back in your apartment if you don't like attending classes. 24x7 internet, browse youtube, facebook, google, and all other websites that you can think of. Eat & drink what ever or when ever you like to have. Go on shopping. Visiting places.

And now that college is over from time to time all we worry about is Job. No time to be carefree. No time for 24x7 internet. No time to enjoy. Everything is about Job.  

Past Is In Past

the past hurts and pave way for future
its upto you to move onward or stay put
but it is the past that hold us back most of time
did i hold onto my past?did i decide to move forward?
i got nothing more to look upon except the dime.
                                 you came into my life with a flash
                                 and without a moment to think i moved
                                 onward with you keeping past in mind
                                 did everything within my capacity to leave the past
                                 there is one thing,i don't want to rewind.
now you are confused about your past
what must i do to make me your present
and to keep you in my present eternal day
i just can't think what must be done
to keep you in my craving way.
                                 let your past be in your past
                                 and let my past be in my past
                                 it is a thing of the bygone day
                                 lets live in our present and future
                                 this is our love our world all the way. 

Confusing Love Of Mine

Am Traveling to Unknown Place All By MySelfJust 

To Meet With You My Love

The Distance Seems Long And Rough

But I Don't Care About The Road

I Care Only About Reaching To you

No Fears Only Courage Within Me

Knowing You Are There Waiting For Me.

I Find You There Waiting For Me
With Blue Jeans And Cute Specks
Beautiful Eyes With A Broad Smile
You Welcome Me Into Your Heart
Feeling Content To Be With You
Knowing We Will Be Spending Time
Sharing Moments And Creating Our Wonderful Memories.

The Night Falls With Twinkling Stars And
I Was There Holding Your Hand
Your Warm Hand Giving Me Chills
The Feeling Of Being With You
Glitters Fresh In My Fluttering Mind 
 Knowing I Will Love You ForEver
And My Feeling Remains Same For You.

The Talks And Stare That We Did
Still Fresh In My Longing Mind
Hug And Kiss That I Gave
Is A Treasure For Our Distance
Your Confusing Feelings And My Feelings
Conflict To Make A Lover Nervous
But All I Care Is I LOVE YOU!

I Can't Bade Farewell With My Love
So I Have A Sleepless Night
Staring At your Peaceful Sleeping Face
A Light Kiss On Your Forehead
I Can't Imagine My Next Day 
A Day Without you In Life
I Fall Asleep With Sleepless Sad Night.

I LOVE YOU!

Valentine's Day 2014

          What a day it was.!
Early in the morning, freshen up and the get dressed. Walk to Office where i am interning :- iTechnologies and then wait for few hours. Exactly at 10:30 AM i walked out of the office and walked towards GARUDA INN near SWISS BAKERY.
There was our University guide who have come all the way from India to check our progress and the time where we all lost some good amount of money to those who were trying to impress sir as to get some good marks. In there for 2 hours but it was damn boring.
I left with some of my friends to a restaurant after bidding our goodbye to Sir, and there we have some good dish which we have always loved it. After that we were all i.e. my friends walked down the city, walking here and there , stopping for a coffee and some snacks.
We all call it "The Singles Valentine's Date" and had fun walking in the cold with a coffee in hand. Found girls beautiful as angel and lol just scanned there figures and looks.
By 6 PM i am back to my home and here i am updating my blog after a long time.

                                     Happy Valentines' Day