Patch up on SATURDAY

  'I know you Like and Love me!'

Five days before Saturday I was made to think

Wondering if I should put words on paper with a ink

The short messages that you sent were different

I didn't think it is going to be like house rent.

With those SMS I was thinking with blank

And all I wanted to do was crazy yank

Me and my Narrow-mind went Negative

But it changed when you dropped another positive.

You never wanted me to leave you but

You loved me yet you don't want to hurt me

You feared and felt bad about yourself

Felt bad because you can't forget your past.

You didn't feel good loving both of us

your ex and me, when you have problem forgetting your ex

And I thought you are still in relation with your ex

So I wanted not to mess up things between you.

I made up mind to say 'I won't come in between' on Saturday

I asked you what I have to Know, the final question 'Are you still in Relation?'

And to it, you answered 'YES' that is when I felt disgusted

I came in between Lovers, I wanted to run.

I said I won't come in between you and

Wanted to go far from you, your expression changed

And you said 'Did I ask you not to come'

I was confused yet I protested.

We talked about it and talked

Until you said 'Okay lets be in Relation' and 'I am still worried about you'

I was content that you and I are in Relation

Forget your past, Past is past.

Breakup on Saturday changed to Patch-up on SATURDAY.!

And Now I am with you and you are with me

I am just going to love you and you only.

Patch up on Saturday.   

Stupid thoughts

It sounds and seems so stupid as time progress and I walk into the future. I am now a working guy, programmer at Southtech Bhutan pvt. Ltd, company based in Bangladesh and when I think I want to go back to college or want to have everything in my life in short span of time.

While I was a high school-er all i dreamed was to be a college going student dreaming about all the fun that one would have while you are in college. I thought being in college you would get to be crazy and do things that you never did in your entire life. Getting drunk, getting laid or being stupid enough to create some insane scene in the college. Get a back log or something But damn none of them happened. I imagined too much as a Engineering Student in a University in India. What I imagined was something that happens in a University in States not in India.
I completely misunderstood the meaning of freedom and enjoyment before going to India for higher studies. When I look back to refresh some of the wonderful times while in University all I remember is going to college on time, attending classes for all the subjects, didn't bunk the college campus nor did I stay absent for a week or more! This is all shit when I recollect this things and more over, all I wanted was to graduate and get a Job.

When I was a high school student I wanted to be college student. And while I was a college student I wanted to get a job. Now that I am employed in one of the best banking software company I want to go back and Start my College life all over again.

What is that we people really want. We want all the crazy things and still when we achieve it we still dream something that has already been in your life. I am guessing I am a Complicated person after all.

Let me see where I go after I have worked for the company. Would I still want for something more or would I be wishing for my past. Past is to be remembered and present to be enjoyed while the future is to be worked upon.